So the year 2009 has come to an end. A lot of bad things happened and a lot of good things happened too. I was supposed to do one of those big ass memes that flows around the blogosphere, but I didn’t know what to write on over half of them.
This year I have, yet again, not only been struggling with my anxiety and depression, but also “brain noise”. But I don’t want to talk about severe suicidal thoughts that I had to go through, I want to focus on the good stuff.
After a bumpy road I’m now down to a small dose of the meds and I have been pretty stable for quite some time now. I’ve even experienced happiness from time to time!
I have learned to take responsibility for my own health. No one else, especially the doctors, is going to decide what I should do, or give me meds that will turn me in to a zombie forever. I’ve let the doctors that for 7 years, enough is enough. I’ve also been dragging my ass to therapy for the first time in years, and I’m still going regularly. I’ve experienced the advantages of CBT-therapy for the first time in my life!
Another important lesson I’ve learned is the ability to say NO.
This year I have been inspired by a few amazing girls that knows what they want and goes for it. So thank you Shrinkle, Doe Deere, Maia, and Galadarling, for making me dream of a better and more fun future!
I have experienced a few amazing events; 1. My birthday-party when I turned 25! The best I’ve ever had! 2. The trips to Copenhagen with Maia.
Last year I made a New Years resolution that I would make notes of every book I read during a year, just to see how many it would be in the end. I didn’t start with this book project until the end of August this year, but better late than never! So far I have read 19 books.
There are a lot more things, both good and bad, that I could bring up. But that would take a whole year to write down ;). I’m going to set up some small goals for 2010, just to have something to strive for. I really hope 2010 will be better than 2009! :)
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