There is something wrong with me
Still, I haven’t felt like bothering with anything blogging related at all. So I guess I must be sick or something.
Got some kind of anxiety/panic attack yesterday, a new type that I have never experienced before and it was really awful. I won’t go in to details but I got really scared and I actually thought I would die. A funny thing is that I didn’t/don’t feel depressed at all and I wasn’t upset over anything, it just attacked me from nowhere.
Got the feeling that it was coming again twice when I was on the bus today as well, and I had to fight it with my last powers to not freak out on the bus. I managed it but I took a Oxazepam at work just in case. I don’t think would have managed it otherwise. Geez, I hope I don’t get addicted to those pills. I only take them when it’s an emergency so I guess I’m safe for now.
Still suffering from nausea, dizziness, brain noise and headache every second and every minute of each day.
Three “close to death experiences” in two days. There is a party going on here.
*Big hug* That totally sucks. I hope it won’t happen again and that you will feel better soon.
Posted on May 30th, 2008 at 7:12 pm
Aww, although I don’t know how you felt, I had to cope when my best friend had a panic attack and it was pretty terrifying for me! Last week we were singing together at a wedding and she almost had one there too, in the middle of the service! I hope you don’t have one again and feel better soon though :)
Posted on May 31st, 2008 at 3:34 am
I’m sorry to hear about all of this. I hope you can find some comfort in that you atleast know that it’s panic-attacks and nothing “real” that happens to you. Not a big comfort though.
Many many hugs for you!
Posted on May 31st, 2008 at 6:47 am
anxiety/depression are rough to deal with. when all you want is to get back to life.
i understand, lady.
Posted on June 5th, 2008 at 10:33 pm